Thursday, September 29, 2011

Clerics and Divas

My life is weird.

The husband and one of my best friends play DnD, and have pulled me into it.  I mostly get it... kinda.  I am learning.  I mostly play because I enjoy the company and the wine.  The Friend is a true wine lover.  He brings amazing wines, way better than the stuff I stock my (now empty) cellar with.  He and I can put away two bottles over the course of an evening.  And so we roll dice and play DnD, and I sit there smiling with my buzz as we slay the Undead.

Yeah, that is how they piqued my interest.  I mostly thought DnD was for crazy nerd guys.  Friend corrected me in that... or rather, he confirmed that it is for crazy nerd guys, but chicks play too, and it can be fun.  Still, I was resistant and reluctant to try to decipher all the code (2d8+Int mod.).  And so they dangled zombies before my eyes.

I cannot resist zombies, apparently.  So, we are playing this crazy campaign in which we are serving the Raven Queen (goddess of death, but not the dead, an important distinction, apparently), and on a mission to eradicate that which defies nature by not remaining dead.  I am playing a battle cleric.  I heal party members but I also hurt stuff... mostly the undead.  I have been dragged kicking and screaming into playing a second character-- a warlock.  I am basing her on Hermione from the Harry Potter series, but apparently that is going to wreck havoc on the party.  Nerds...

I am a week away from opening the show I have been rehearsing.  The entire process has been a reminder about why I don't do community theatre for me.  Apparently, one of the actresses had a MAJOR blowup last night at rehearsal.  I wish I'd been there.  But she made another actress cry, and upset the director, and has set my friend (a third actress) on edge.  She also threatened to drop out of the show... the show that goes up in, oh, NINE DAYS....  My friend is convinced that I could take the role if that actress carries out her threat.  Sigh.  I just wanted to do my job-- walk on and off, deliver my character and lines with precision and attention, and support the show.

I once directed a production of Our Town here.  The week before we went up, I told the actress playing the Stage Manager to just use the script, which was part of her props anyway.... She got her knickers in a twist and dropped out of the show.  I was the one who came out badly from that-- I was difficult to work with and unreasonable and mean.  She did no damage to her reputation whatsoever.  

Community theatre kinda sucks.

The through line here, and there is one, is that DnD is better than community theatre, at least at my house.  There is more wine and less whining.  There is good company and no dysfunctional theatre companies.  And all the divas are actual characters, rather than divas PLAYING characters.

I really need to retire from acting.  Roll a d6....


Tuesday, September 20, 2011

The inability to focus

I should be writing.  The Boy has been in school for over two weeks now.  The Husband, although home sick, is upstairs.  I have a new phone, but I figured it out.  The dishwasher is empty.  The library books are read.  The dog isn't bugging me-- she is sprawled out on the floor, not even snoring.  The weather is kinda dreary-- not enticing me to go outside and weed at all.  The house, although in clear need of the vacuum, is not terrible, and there is no one coming to visit any time soon.

So why am I blogging instead of tearing into the book?  The book is done.  Yeah, I have lots of things I can keep working on.  But, I could edit until the end of the world.  I just need to send it out to the people who have agreed to read it.

I am feeling unfocused, kinda blurry even.  I cannot keep from daydreaming.  I have no real desire to do anything.  I am not depressed-- I know what that is.  I am just going through the motions right now.  Part of me knows I need to recharge my batteries.  I have failed MISERABLY at Plan 3-- the whole taking time for me thing.  And this last two months have been terrible for that.  The OAP festival, the wedding, the houseguests, the illnesses, the Husband being gone for ten days and now ill for the third week running.  I am getting to take two days in October for myself, but not until the fourth weekend of October.

People can live for like six minutes without oxygen.  A day with no water.  A week with no sleep.  A month with no food.

How long can a person live without a recharge?  My guess is a long time.  But is it really living, or is it just living?